The Past

I rarely remember dreams these days. Four months and 10 days ago, on Sunday, August 18th, I slept later than usual, in part because I was still recovering from my first (after all this time) experience having COVID. I had a vivid dream with a lot going on. My mom showed up towards the end […]

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20 years ago today, on December 1, 2004, we experienced our first miscarriage. I was about seven weeks pregnant, with an estimated due date (EDD) of July 20, 2005. Sean was 13 months old when I tested positive with a home pregnancy test on November 10, 2004. We were trying and I was anxious to […]

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‘Cause when you’re fifteen… Can you believe it? Today you are fifteen! I was going to borrow/reuse some of the post I wrote for your older sibling Sean on their 15th Birthday six years ago, using lyrics from the awesome song 100 Years by Five for Fighting, as I felt they fit/apply to you at […]

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One of the many cute and quirky things my parents did regularly in their golden years was something they referred to as “transportation bonding.” It typically consisted of my dad driving my mom somewhere that only she needed to go. However, they used it as an opportunity to spend quality time together during the ride […]

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Dear Molly, I re-read last year’s post from your birthday/the anniversary of your death and was struck by how much of it applies to how I feel now/this year. When navigating difficult and uncertain times, I often think I’ve never felt like this before, it is so hard. However, in reality every age and stage […]

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Today it’s been nine months since Mom died and I have so many swirling thoughts that surround this milestone. I miss her so much. I think a lot about all that I learned from her in my 48 of her 80 years on this earth. I am inspired by how committed Mom was to living […]

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