Peace

Happy 7th Heavenly Birthday, Molly Marie! Seven years… That’s how long you’ve been gone. How long it’s been since you lived. Your sister Abby keeps your memory alive as much as anyone these days, which amazes me. She never knew you in this lifetime, but she seems fascinated by you. She imagines and wonders and questions. […]

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Is this part of your vocabulary? Do you think often about what you *should* be doing? I had a great session with my therapist today. She encouraged me not to should so much. She suggested I replace that word with something else. For example: What would I like to do? What would you like to […]

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I can still smell the soap on my hands as I type this. It’s one of many triggers I experience every time I go there. But it’s worth it. The soap in the dispensers everywhere at Christ Medical Center smells the same. Whether you are visiting a patient, you are the patient, you just had […]

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We drove by on our way to dinner and noticed their front door was open. I asked Bob if he minded if we stopped by quickly to say, “hello.” I hadn’t seen them since the day of her funeral (which I ended up giving a eulogy at). I hopped out and rang the door bell. […]

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The older I get, the more people I care about who die, the more the balance seems to be shifting from most of my heart and mind being in this world to more of it being in the afterlife. My loved ones and I have experienced a lot of loss this summer. I get that […]

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I took this picture, at sunrise on Hilton Head Island, the morning after she died, before I knew she died. ~~~~~~~~~~ I woke up this morning groggy and immediately remembered the voicemail we received upon returning home from our wonderful vacation last night. It was from an old and dear friend’s best friend and I […]

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