Pain

With each passing year, these birthday/anniversary of your death letters/blog entries seem get harder to write. I know that I don’t have to continue with them and if I ever choose to stop or take a break that would be okay. Life feels really heavy and hard right now. As with every age and stage […]

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What a year your nineteenth has been! I had to double check with Dad, to make sure I got that right, and he confirmed that when you turn any given age, that is the year that you just completed. So many milestones and life transitions… In January you auditioned for and made Anastasia the musical […]

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Sean started singing that song from Hamilton the musical when I told them about a dream I had earlier this week. I woke up to go to the bathroom in the early morning (about 3:00 a.m.) on Monday, as I often do, and immediately remembered that my dad, who seemed to be alive and well, […]

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One year ago today began the last four weeks of my father’s life, though we didn’t know that at the time. It began with a phone call from my mom at 8:41 a.m. on Thursday, June 3rd. I was outside enjoying a beautiful morning and taking pictures of some flowers, that were blooming in our […]

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14 years have now come and gone since we last held you in our arms. 14 years since I carried you, you were born, and, soon afterwards, you died. And what a year this last one has been… I don’t think we’ve experienced a more difficult year since the one in which you were born […]

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Today was our day. At least, it was our day since I was in high school, in the early 1990’s. It began with you waking me up early on an April 1st, that happened to fall on a weekday, when we were hosting my youth group for a Lenten Breakfast/Bible Study/Faith Sharing at our home, […]

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