I got the call a little before 2:00 p.m. today. The nurse said that she had some very bad news, that the blood test was negative and that she was so sorry it didn’t work out this time. There wasn’t much more for either of us to say. I had asked all my questions at my blood test this morning (i.e. what would happen next either way). I guess I had the presence of mind to realize I would be either too excited or too disappointed to get into them on the phone this afternoon.
I will stop all of my medications today (including the PIO shots, Estridol patches and the baby aspirin). I should get a period sometime in the next few days. I will go in on cycle day 3 (after my period starts) for blood work and an ultrasound. Then I will go back on the pill most likely the Saturday after that. We have a follow-up appt. scheduled with our Dr. for Friday, May 11. At that point he will go over everything with us about this cycle and discuss with us the plan/the protocol for our next cycle, which we are pretty sure we plan to do. With only one frozen embryo we do think it makes sense to try another fresh cycle first.
I will be reading my “Top Ten List of Things to Look Forward To If I Am Not Pregnant” over and over again over the next few days to remind all I have to be thankful for right now. Though I was not shocked to hear the news I was very disappointed. I certainly have been doing a lot of crying and talking with some of my close friends and family members since I got the news and has helped me a lot to process this. I feel bad that Bob had to get the news from me at work and then continue on with his day. But I know that he (probably somewhat men in general) are better able to handle things like this and then go on with their normal lives and we will have plenty of time to talk more about it tonight when he gets home, after Sean goes to bed. I intend to continue to this blog, so feel free to check back for updates in the days to come. I know that Bob and I were not the only ones very disappointed to learn the news today. Thank you again for your continued support, thoughts and prayers! We understood from the beginning that there were no guarantees and we know that there’s always next time…
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Oh, Kathy. I am so, so sorry. How absolutely crushing. (((hugs))) Take care of yourself, Bob and Sean right now — it’s all you can do. One day at a time…
(((HUGS))) Thinking of you.
Kathy, I can’t tell you how sorry I am. You have been so strong and so positive all along, I really believed that this would work for you because you deserve it so much. Please don’t lose hope, just look at Sommer. Please lean on us all. ((((((HUGS)))))))