Some things are not too good to be true…

by Kathy on January 29, 2009 · 45 comments

in Baby Benson, Bob, Sean, The Future

…at least for now.

It is with great joy, some fear and cautious optimism that I share with you the news that I am pregnant!

Yes, you read that right. I am approximately 6 1/2 weeks, depending on which dates you go by.

I have wanted to share about this here sooner, but I have just been so full of conflicting emotions and wasn’t ready, especially because it was (and still is) so early.

There is obviously a lot more to this story and I will share all of that in the days to come.

I am sorry if this is difficult or bittersweet for some of you (who are trying to conceive or have lost babies) to read. I will understand if you choose not to read my future posts about my pregnancy and I wish you the best on your journeys trying to have a baby and/or grieving/healing from the loss of your child(ren).

I also want you all to know that I am very aware that there are no guarantees in life, especially in light of our reproductive history (this is our sixth pregnancy and yet we have one living child). We are taking this pregnancy one step and one day at a time.

As I shared in a recent post, we were trying, but didn’t really think it could/would happen on our own (without medical assistance). Though I never gave up hope and I did believe it was possible. I recently re-read your comments on that post and found some of them to be somewhat foreshadowing of the current events in my life. So thank you for believing along with me!

A few quick details, as I imagine many of you may want to know them:

We are due on Bob & my 9th wedding anniversary September 23, 2009!

I have had two beta blood tests at approximately 16 days past ovulation (dpo) & 23 dpo. The level of hCG (pregnancy horomone) in my system those days were respectively 633 & 8,028. That’s a doubling time of 45.84 hours, which we and our doctors were pleased with.

We had our first ultrasound today and so far, so good! Our baby appears to be in my uterus (which was especially reassuring due to our past history of an interstitial ectopic pregnancy in November 2005) and measured 0.8 cm. We got to see our precious baby’s heart beating and it measured about 134 bpm!

As far as symptoms go, I am feeling very nauseous and fatigued. I also have been peeing a lot and my breasts are tender. Though some of these conditions are more challenging to live with than others, I am doing my best to welcome them as positive indications that our baby is growing and developing as it should.

For those of you we know in real life, if you are just learning this news now, I am sorry we didn’t get to tell you in person. We haven’t told very many of our family and close friends and we don’t intend to for some time. This is in part because it is so early and especially because if things continue to go well, we aren’t going to tell Sean about our baby for as long as possible and we don’t want our son to find out our news from anyone other than us. We appreciate you respecting our wishes and keeping this to yourselves. Of course you are welcome to contact us about it, but please don’t share our pregnancy news with others.

I want to be able to blog about my pregnancy in the days and weeks to come, as I know that even if things continue to go well, as I desperately hope and pray they will, it is not going to be easy for me physically and emotionally. This space has been invaluable to me over the past two years, since I began blogging, on our journey trying to expand our family and I want to continue to use it as an outlet to work through my feelings and experiences, as a vehicle to keep all of you updated on what is happening with our current pregnancy and as a way to connect with others who are also dealing with the joys and struggles of trying to grow their families and/or parent the children they have been blessed with.

Thank you so much for your support, encouragement, positive thoughts and prayers. I need them more than ever right now, as though I am very excited about this amazing new life growing inside me, I am also scared, knowing (unfortunately too well from our experience) what can go wrong during what starts out as seemingly “normal” pregnancy. I like to think that all of our angel babies, especially our baby girl Molly, are and will continue to be watching over our new baby and our family in the days, weeks and months to come. May God continue to bless you and your loved ones.

{ 45 comments… read them below or add one }

1 Fertilized January 29, 2009 at 8:43 pm

i have LEPT off my chair and done a happy dance!

This is the best news I have read so far this year. Goodness I am just so excited – sending you lots of prayers

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2 Kristie January 29, 2009 at 8:46 pm

Kathy! I have had dreams of this day for you for some time now. I am so excited for you, Bob and Sean. I am so glad you shared the news with us. i was to be with you {even if it is through the net} every step of the way. I am in tears for you.

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3 Monica January 29, 2009 at 8:52 pm

praying that all goes well

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4 Mrs. Spit January 29, 2009 at 9:11 pm

Congrats!

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5 Jess January 29, 2009 at 9:22 pm

YAY!!! Congratulations!

Prayers to you guys. Lots of them!

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6 Bluebird January 29, 2009 at 9:25 pm

Congrats sweetie! I only just recently found your blog, but still find myself rejoicing for your news! Keeping fingers crossed for the next 9 months.

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7 Photogrl January 29, 2009 at 9:37 pm

Yay, yay, yay!!!

I understand being cautiously optomistic (5 pregnancies here, and only 1 child)…praying for you and this pregnancy.

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8 Kymberli January 29, 2009 at 10:01 pm

Kathy! Oh sweet, sweet Kathy! I’m crying tears of blissful joy for you and your family. Oh, this news has uplifted my heart so very, very much. I will most certainly be here to support you through this new, blessed pregnancy.

I pray that your sweet Molly is keeping her baby brother or sister safe and sound until he or she can join you here on earth.

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9 Sassy January 29, 2009 at 10:58 pm

Congratulations! I really hope this pregnancy goes perfectly smoothly for you. Take care.

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10 JuliaS January 29, 2009 at 11:48 pm

Oh Kathy – I am so very happy for you! Praying and wishing everything goes wonderfully for you and you have a nice screaming bonus at the end of a very long, boring, and uneventful several months!

{{hugs}}

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11 Amy January 30, 2009 at 12:19 am

I know that I do not know you well, I have been keeping up with your blog. I went MIA for a while as I have been going through some really tough stuff.

I just want for you to know that my prayers are with you and your beautiful family. How exciting and what a wonderful blessing. I am thankful that you thought enough of us to share the most private and the most wonderful news that a couple can share…

I am CHEERING for you!!!! Be blessed.

Amy

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12 Stacie January 30, 2009 at 12:53 am

Congratulations! I am so very happy for your family! 🙂

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13 Amy January 30, 2009 at 8:49 am

Congratulations!!! I’ll be thinking of you and hoping everything goes well.

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14 Melissa January 30, 2009 at 10:56 am

I’ve been reading your blog for several months now and I am over-the-moon happy for you. Congratulations! I’m wishing you all the best and I hope God blesses you with a healthy baby this September.

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15 Katie January 30, 2009 at 11:25 am

OH MY LORD!

I just wrote in my blog that I always get a tinge of the green-eyed monster when I hear about others’ pregnancies, but there is NOTHING but pure joy in me for this special announcement!

Oh, Kathy, tears of happiness are streaming down my face. I couldn’t be more pleased.

Praying for you and your family.

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16 Martha January 30, 2009 at 11:39 am

I am so, so Happy and Delighted for you and your family. Health and Happiness Always. Thank you for sharing your wonderful news.

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17 alison January 30, 2009 at 11:39 am

Happy Day! Congrats to you! I’m sure that this little bean will have one very special angel sister to watch out for him or her. *hugs*

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18 BagMomma January 30, 2009 at 11:52 am

This is great news!!!

I am so excited for you.

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19 Sherri January 30, 2009 at 11:59 am

I am so happy for you. As soon as I saw your message on Facebook I just knew you had some good news. You will be in my thoughts and prayers!

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20 Jen January 30, 2009 at 12:27 pm

Congratulations! I am so happy for all of you.

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21 Waiting Amy January 30, 2009 at 1:40 pm

I was thrilled to come across this news! I’ll be thinking tons of good thought for you. You deserve this miracle.

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22 Erika January 30, 2009 at 1:44 pm

Congratulations! I'm so happy for you! I'll be praying for you & your new precious little one!

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23 Kristen January 30, 2009 at 2:07 pm

I’m new to your blog but had to say congratulations on your pregnancy! I am very happy and hopeful for you and will be praying for a safe, healthy baby you can hold in your arms come September! XOXO

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24 Ellen McG January 30, 2009 at 3:28 pm

Hi Kathy! I stop by your blog from time to time and I AM SO THRILLED FOR YOU AND BOB!!!! I wish I could give you a big hug in person. I’d be scared and optimistic too. Sending love, prayers, and good wishes. aoe, Ellen

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25 Lynn January 30, 2009 at 4:58 pm

So thrilled to hear your news… like I mentioned before and as you know from my case, sometimes pregnancy just decides to sneak up on you. Although I can completely understand your worries, please do try to enjoy each and every day as it comes.

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26 Amy January 30, 2009 at 7:31 pm

Oh, Kathy, this is great news and I will be awaiting all of the good news coming from you!

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27 loribeth January 30, 2009 at 7:44 pm

Congratulations, Kathy!! I am so happy for you, & I wish you an easy pregnancy that goes by as fast as you want it to!

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28 Seraphim January 31, 2009 at 1:09 am

OMG! Kathy I am THRILLED for you. Dancing thrilled, not just sit in my chair thrilled.
Praying for you. Alot xxxx

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29 SommerNyte January 31, 2009 at 2:08 am

That is wonderful news, Kathy! Calista’s due date was 9/23. It’s a good day to be due!

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30 Allison January 31, 2009 at 7:59 am

This is SUCH great news. I am so happy for you guys and just know this is going to have a happy ending.

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31 Becoming a Family of Four January 31, 2009 at 8:22 am

Oh my gosh! Kathy, I am thrilled for you! Good things DO happen to good people 🙂
Sounds like a great start!

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32 Busted January 31, 2009 at 9:59 am

Congratulations!!! I’m sure there are a lot of emotions surrounding this but we are all pulling for you and sending best wishes.

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33 kim February 1, 2009 at 12:32 pm

Hi , just wanted to say I’m always so happy when an IF blogger gets a positive, but my heart literally lept in my chest when I read your news on Katie’s blog. So happy for you, you have my prayers for continued good news. Yay!

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34 Melinda February 1, 2009 at 10:07 pm

I am so happy for you and pray everything goes well!

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35 Nurse Lochia February 2, 2009 at 9:25 am

How awesome! Congratulations!

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36 seussgirl February 2, 2009 at 12:19 pm

Congratulations! It seems like we’re due only a few days apart. 🙂 I’m wishing you all the best!

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37 motheringmymiraclemultiples February 3, 2009 at 9:36 am

(delurking)
I am so happy for you and will keep you and your family in our prayers.

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38 Cara February 3, 2009 at 12:16 pm

Kathy – what amazing news!!! I am so blessed to be surrounded my MANY pregnancy announcements this week. 2009 is starting out with a positive vibe.

I’ll be back – often – to check your pregnancy posts!!

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39 CLC February 4, 2009 at 6:20 am

What wonderful news to hear! I am happy for you and your husband. I wish you both the best and have high hopes that you will have a boring 9 months ahead of you.

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40 Kimmyann February 4, 2009 at 7:58 pm

Congratulations! Crossing my fingers for you and your little bean.

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41 Lynda February 5, 2009 at 2:19 pm

i’m so happy to read this!!!!
will be thinking of you a lot!

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42 Suzanna Catherine February 5, 2009 at 7:42 pm

Everyone else has already said it but I have to add my 2 cents worth. This is such wonderful news! Sending you lots of prayers and hugs.

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43 The Tomlin Family February 9, 2009 at 12:39 am

I am so happy for you and your family! Many positive thoughts coming your way for a healthy and happy 9 months! ((((hugs))))

Jess (from Connected Moms)

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44 Alison February 24, 2009 at 1:35 pm

I have been behind on my blog reading and just now saw this – Congraulations! You are in my thoughts and prayers as you continue on your jorney.

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45 Amanda March 7, 2009 at 9:46 pm

I have neglected reading your blog for some time now and am soooooooo happy to read this amazing news!!! I know God and sweet little Molly will be watching over you and the new life inside of you. Congratulations!!! You deserve this so much!

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