This will be resolved.

by Kathy on August 20, 2007 · 3 comments

in FET #1, Resolutions, Sean

My therapist that I went to, starting last September until February of this year (when she decided to be a full time SAHM, though she struggled with both pregnancy loss and infertility before she finally had her son through IVF, after many attempts, which does give me hope), made that statement to me the first time I met with her. It was just what I needed to hear that day and I really took it to heart. That said, on days like today, it sometimes feels like that statement is not true and I feel like I will be stuck in the ambiguity of secondary infertility forever… However, I know that one way or another our situation will be resolved and it will not last forever.

I got my period today, so my cycle day 3 appointment will be on Wednesday and I will likely start the pill Friday or Saturday. It has been very humid here, not really hot, just humid. I don’t deal well with humidity, so it has not been a positive factor in the state of my mood today. Sean also didn’t nap, so I didn’t get my “built in break” this afternoon. Okay, enough whining…

Mainly I just wanted to check in update you on my period’s arrival and thank you again for your thoughtful comments, emails, phone calls, support, encouragement and prayers.

Tonight is the monthly perinatal support group at our local hospital. I missed last month, but plan to attend tonight, especially in light of our negative pregnancy test on Friday and the 2nd anniversary of the day we lost our 2nd angel baby yesterday (August 19). I think being amongst others who have experienced pregnancy loss and/or primary or secondary infertility will be helpful to me tonight.

Getting back into exercising has been helping me cope too… Sean and I returned to our local group exercise center (where I teach group fitness classes sometimes) this morning, for the first time since May. It felt great for me to participate in the class and Sean enjoyed playing with his friends there! Tomorrow morning I plan to get up early and meet one of my neighborhood friends for an hour walk before Bob has to leave for work. I think that will be a great way to start the day!

Thank you for reading. I hope you have a good evening! GO BEARS!!! (who are playing a pre-season football rematch tonight against the Colts, who beat them in the Super Bowl earlier this year) I am off to make Sean dinner and give him a bath before his early bedtime, since he skipped his nap today. Take care and may God bless you and yours.

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1 Barb August 21, 2007 at 8:00 pm

I too am struggling with secondary infertily…and look forward to the day when “this is resolved” one way or another. However, you have been an inspiration to me — you have such a positive attitude.

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2 Deb August 22, 2007 at 11:45 am

I hope that the support group and walk worked their “magic” and were helpful. Hope today’s appt went well!

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