Holding Mystery at 50

June 5, 2025

Earlier this year, my therapist encouraged me to “hold a certain amount of mystery and figure out what works for me” in regard to circumstances that I struggle with. I’ll add holding space, tension and ambiguity, as well as gaining clarity/figuring out what matters and is meaningful to me. My therapist has given me variations […]

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Honoring Molly (17 Years)

April 17, 2025

Dear Molly, Today is your “Golden Birthday” and the 17th anniversary of your death. I baked a cake last night for us to begin enjoying on your birthday eve, as today will be a busy one for our family. I grabbed a bag of miscellaneous extra candles from a kitchen cabinet to decorate it and […]

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18 Years in 18 Words

April 10, 2025

18 years ago today, on April 10, 2007, I began blogging. Though I don’t post as often or consistently as I have in the past, I am still grateful to have this space to share and process life. On past blogoversaries I have shared things that I have learned from blogging and 13 years ago, since my blogoversary fell on the […]

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Rewind 2024

January 12, 2025

13 years ago I participated in a year-end blog meme for the first time called Rewind 2011, with fun and interesting questions designed to get writers and readers to reflect on our lives in 2011. I did so again the following year, with my Rewind 2012. After that I took six years off, starting up […]

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Glimpses of Mom and Dad

December 28, 2024

I rarely remember dreams these days. Four months and 10 days ago, on Sunday, August 18th, I slept later than usual, in part because I was still recovering from my first (after all this time) experience having COVID. I had a vivid dream with a lot going on. My mom showed up towards the end […]

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Our First Pregnancy Loss (20 Years Later)

December 1, 2024

20 years ago today, on December 1, 2004, we experienced our first miscarriage. I was about seven weeks pregnant, with an estimated due date (EDD) of July 20, 2005. Sean was 13 months old when I tested positive with a home pregnancy test on November 10, 2004. We were trying and I was anxious to […]

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