Brown discharge

I can’t even believe I am writing this, but around 4:00 p.m. today I wiped some brown discharge (a small amount and kinda stringy, but obviously there). I wiped a little more again around 5:00 p.m. I may have actually had some this morning, but it was following a bowel movement and at the time I was convinced it was related to that (though now I am not sure). I am 7 weeks 3 days pregnant today, I hope still, and am praying that this is not the beginning of the end…

I Googled “Brown discharge at 7 weeks pregnant” and got lots of related links. Some were very encouraging and shared stories of women who had brown discharge that sounded like mine, went in for monitoring and there was still a heartbeat and everything turned out to be fine. Of course I found plenty of stories of the brown eventually becoming red and it turning into a miscarriage.

My two previous miscarriages that were discovered first with bleeding, both began with bright red blood, not brown. So I choose to find hope in that. “They” say that brown blood is “old blood” and red is “new.” I read somethings online about women’s cervix’s getting irritated, bleeding a bit and then ultimately turning to brown before it comes out. Some women spoke of this happening following having intercourse, however Bob and I have not been “allowed” to have (and have not had) intercourse since before the embryo transfer.

Since it is after hours at my RE’s office, I have arranged for our RE to be paged. I know that likely I will be told to wait until morning and then either come in for monitoring or I suppose he may say if it continues to be light and only brown, or doesn’t continue, that odds are everything is fine and that I can wait until my scheduled ultrasound appointment on Monday. I think with my history of miscarriages, I will likely push to be seen in the morning, as I don’t know that I can handle waiting until Monday right now. But I guess if it stays light and brown and/or goes away, maybe I can find peace in that and hold out, believing that everything is going to be okay, that our baby is still growing and developing on track.

If any of you have any success stories of women who were pregnant, in their first trimester, had brown discharge and went on to have a healthy pregnancy/birth… please feel free to share! I really appreciate your support, positive thoughts, sticky vibes and prayers right now, as always!!! I am trying to keep it together (especially for Sean, as Bob is not home from work yet and is actually staying a bit later to get some things done, in case we end up going in to see our RE tomorrow morning, as I expressed that I want him with me if we go) . I am hoping and praying really hard that our little miracle is okay and that this brown discharge is not representative of it’s fate in a negative way. I really can’t believe this is happening, even though all along I have had a hard time trying be positive and believe that our “overachieving embryo” can and will grow into a healthy baby that we will meet in or around June of next year… I just want this child to be a part of our family sooooooo much and don’t want this to be over.

I have been through early pregnancy loss before, as you know three times to be exact, and I know that if that is the road we are on, that we are strong and we will get through it. I am just really hoping and praying that it is not the case, that this brown discharge is a fluke or whatever. I am a little annoyed that our RE has not called yet, after being paged. I am trying to be patient and remember that he has a life and a family that need attention too. I will check in later if and when I know more. Please pray that our baby is okay and that if not that I have the strength to get through this and make peace with it. Thank you and may God bless you and yours.