Vivid dreams & implantation spotting?!

Good morning! 🙂

Today I am 4dp5dt (9dpo)! Only 7 more days until the Beta! 🙂

I had a lot of bizarre dreams last night… Though none of them actually had anything to do with pregnancy and/or our current FET cycle, at least not directly (though I imagine many of the themes can relate to our situation). The first one I recall, I woke up from a nightmare and couldn’t remember much about it, but it was scary enough that it woke me and I was afraid, for a little while, to fall back asleep. In that dream I recall, right before I woke up, Bob and I were in our bedroom and a strange man was trying to enter, Bob was at the door, trying to block him from getting in and for some reason that must have freaked me out in the dream. I even woke up Bob in real life, to tell him about it, so he could comfort me.

Another dream I had last night, I was with Britney Spears (apparently I watch/read to much entertainment news/gossip) and I was just trying to be nice to her and calm her down, I also don’t remember details of this one, just general idea that I was with her.

My last dream, the one I remember most, started out with me being in some kind of walk/run/race, but it was crowded and the route was confusing. At one point I had a bike that I had to check somewhere to continue the walk/run (and later in the dream getting back to claim my bike was confusing, I couldn’t figure out how to get back there, I was aware of Sean in the dream and was trying to coordinate picking him up from preschool, along w/ everything else that was going on). Meanwhile throughout this particular dream it was clear that I was in school, maybe college level and that I was in English and Science classes, but that I had missed many class sessions and done none of the reading/prep for the classes (this is actually a reoccurring dream I have had throughout my life in different variations, being unprepared for tests/class etc.). I also remember that in my dream, you could check books out from the English teacher, but they were actually more like children’s books/stories (that I could read to or with Sean) and noticing that everyone who did so in the class wrote very detailed thank you notes commenting on the books and what they liked about them, as the instructor had left the thank you notes out by the books to be checked out. Funny, as I have been out of college for 10 years now and grad school for 8!

Also mixed into this dream I was in some kind of dance class or troupe and we had a routine that we were suppose to preform (I danced for many years of my life, from my early childhood until mid-high school). When it came time, I forgot most of the dance and so I just started improvising, when I dropped this bar thing that we were all dancing with. When I picked it up, I threw it to one of the the other dancers and luckily she caught it, and then the other dancers had to follow suit (improving) or it would have looked off. The dance turned out cool, but the other dancers were annoyed with me afterwards, as I had not followed the plan for the routine (I was watching old “So You Think You Can Dance” episodes on DVR last night, so that could have been why dance was on my mind)!

Anyway, bizarre night, I got up a lot to go to the bathroom and recall each set of dreams preceding me getting up to pee! 😉 You probably think I am a little nutty for sharing all that, but I woke up not all that long ago and wanted to write it down before I forgot, so I could try to make some sense of it, if that is possible?! And thus, decide to just post it! Thanks for bearing with me there… I did have a lot of vivid dreams early on in my pregnancy with Sean, so you never know?! 😉 I know it can/could just be the hormones and anxiety that I am experiencing (causing restless sleep that would allow me to be more aware of my dreams), but it might be a good sign?! 🙂 That said, I know I have had them during other ART cycles in the “two week wait,” especially my 1st fresh IVF, so I am inclined to think they are more the meds and less a potential pregnancy! 🙂

One last word on this though, I do recall a dream I had very early on, after I found out I was pregnant with Sean. I found out we were “expecting” him in January 2003 (not that long after 9/11/01) and in the dream I was in some kind of plane that ultimately was spiralling down, straight for the ground, but before it hit, my dream picture in my mind went fuzzy, like when a TV screen picture goes fuzzy and then I woke up suddenly (as I did after my first dream/nightmare last night) and was very scared, but also very relieved! So maybe that type of dream means something?! 😉

On another note, I think I may have had a little “implantation spotting” last night. It was a small amount of peachish/brownish stringy discharge that I wiped one time only, around 8:15 p.m. I know that it probably doesn’t mean anything, but it is fun to think it might?! 😉

Lastly, my girlfriend is in labor as I write this, delivering her baby boy or girl, so please say a little prayer for her and I will let you know when I hear the good news! 🙂 She was set to be induced, as I mentioned in a previous post, at about 3:30 a.m. this morning, so for all I know she may have had the baby already, as her second son’s labor went very quickly! But time will tell… She does plan to call me sometime today, after she has the baby, when she feels up to it! 🙂 So I am excitedly awaiting her call, as are the other 6 moms/families in our neighborhood playgroup, whom I will then contact after I find out! 🙂 There were originally 9 moms and 9 children in our group, when we formed in late 2003/early 2004. Now, with this latest addition, there will 8 moms and 17 children (one family who now has two children, moved away in 9/04, but if I count them it would be 9 moms and 19 children)!

Thank you for your continued, support, thoughts and prayers for us and our little embryo! 🙂

Have a great morning, afternoon or evening (depending on when you are reading this)! 🙂