Still pregnant! :)

Today I am 17dp5dt (22dpo) and 5 weeks 2 days pregnant! 🙂

I can’t believe I am still pregnant! I know that sounds weird, but after three previous losses, despite my wanting to be optimistic, I think part of me keeps waiting for some thing to go wrong… I am trying to stay positive and take it one day at a time! 🙂

This morning we went to church with my parents. The last time we went there when I happened to be pregnant in late November 2004, we have been there plenty since (but not while I was pregnant), I went to the bathroom and discovered I was spotting and ultimately in the coming week I miscarried our first angel baby. At the time I had mixed feelings about our miscarriage starting in a church, as in some ways I felt betrayed by God and in other ways I felt like it was sort of comforting for something so sad to begin in such a safe and faith filled place. I joked with Bob this morning that I was afraid to go to the bathroom there, but I did (twice) and everything appears to be fine (no spotting)! 🙂 Bob teases me for being so superstitious sometimes, but I just tend to notice/think about those kinds of things. I don’t feel like I obsess about them, more that I am just aware of them.

We had a really fun time yesterday at one of our college friend’s weddings! It was one of the last of our college friends/one of my Alpha Phi sorority sister’s to get married and it was so great to catch up with some of our old friends throughout the events of the day! 🙂 One of my friends, who attended the wedding, knew already that we are expecting, as I have kept her up to date on, and she has been very supportive during, our secondary infertility (SI) journey. It helped for her to know yesterday, as we could chat about it from time to time and she was able to help “cover” for me when needed. We chose not to tell anyone else our wonderful news at this time, since it is still so very early and though most of the rest of our friends that were there know we have struggled with SI, they don’t know that we started ART cycles earlier this year and the wedding didn’t feel like the time to get into it. I do think another of our friends may have suspected something was up, as she knows how I usually dance like crazy all night long at weddings (and also have a few drinks) and she seemed suspicious that though I danced a lot, it wasn’t as much as I typically do. But if all goes well, she will find out and/or confirm her theory soon enough… 😉 Anyway, I am so happy for my newlywed girlfriend and her newlywed husband! She looked so beutiful and so happy yesterday! They will be honeymooning in Hawaii and then returning to their home together in Orange County, California (I think it is fun to actually know people who live in “The OC,” after having been a fan of the show called “The OC” when it was on in years past!) I wish them the best in their new life together and was honored to be a part of their special day!

Sean is napping for the first time in probably about a week’s time! He woke up early this morning (my mom graciously got up with him and let Bob and I sleep in, since we were staying at their house and she knew we had gotten to bed later after the wedding reception last night). It is nice for Sean to be getting a snooze and nice for Bob and me to also have a restful afternoon.

Later this afternoon we are actually going to check out a house in our neighborhood that is for sale with the realtor who sold us our current home five years ago. We are not actively looking to buy a new home or sell ours right now, but always like to keep our eyes out and options open. It may seem like we are jumping the gun a bit, just having found out a week ago we are pregnant with #2… And in many ways we probably are! 😉 But, this house seems like a great opportunity and so we just want to see if it is too good to be true. It is definitely a “fixer upper,” from what we understand. That might be a difficult transition after all the renovations we have done to make our house such a nice and cozy home over the past few years. However, the bottom line is space and right now (with two bedrooms) we don’t have a plethora of it and this place we are going to see the afternoon, has four bedrooms and a lot more space. So if we were to decide to go for it, we could live without some of the luxuries in our current place, like the awesome kitchen we remodeled this past winter, knowing that in due time we could and would make our new bigger house as great as our home now, only it would be so much bigger, for our expanding family! 🙂 Once we see the inside today, we like the outside a lot and have a vision based on it and what we know of the inner dimensions, we know we’ll have a gut feeling on if this is the time to try to buy, sell and move…

Thank you for your comments, support, positive thoughts, sticky vibes and prayers! 🙂 We continue to feel unbelievably blessed and lucky that I am carrying what thus far appears to be a healthy child! Take care and May God bless you and yours.