Only 3 more days…

Today I am 8dpt5dt (13 dpo)! 🙂 Only 3 more days until our Beta on Monday! 🙂

Once again I have found myself struggling today with the wait to find out the outcome of this cycle, but also still very determined not to POAS. I spoke with my sister and then parents this morning, exchanged emails with an old friend from college (whom I only recently shared with that we are using ART to try to conceive), spoke with a neighborhood friend, and then also talked at length with my mother-in-law this afternoon, all of whom were very supportive. Those conversations/interactions helped me work through my emotions and reminded me that what I am going through, during this time of waiting, is normal for anyone trying to have a child, let alone someone who is doing IVF/FET and thus on medications that make one’s hormones get all out of wack. So a big thank you to all those I have had contact with today or this week while I have been trying to remain patient and cautiously optimistic until we get our blood test results on Monday afternoon! 🙂 🙂 🙂 Also thank you, as always for all of your positive thoughts and prayers, I really believe they make a difference! 🙂

Sean and I just finished making a batch of gingerbread cookies, which was fun! 🙂 Sean really likes to bake and recently we had discussed making gingerbread cookies sometime soon… So today while he was at his “seasonal sports” class at one of our local park district facilities, I made a quick trip to the grocery store and found a mix (I know that is cheating a little, usually I like to make those kinds of cookies from scratch) for them on sale! When Sean woke up from his nap he saw the mix and wanted to make them right away… So we did! They are cooling now and then we will decorate them, which Sean is also very excited about! Too cute! 🙂 Spending time with Sean like that does wonders for getting my mind off of whether or not he has a little brother or sister growing inside me right now or not.

I was just about to sign off when I saw a notification that I had just received an email (from a support group/user group that I belong to for women who have experienced pregnancy loss and are trying to have another child) with the subject being: The Serenity Prayer. As many of you know, I come from a family with a number of recovering (thankfully) alcoholics and that prayer is very big in the AA/Al anon recovery/support community. I started hearing it early in my life and have always found it comforting, especially in times of struggle and times of waiting, like right now… So as I leave you this afternoon, I will share and ponder The Serenity Prayer and I will continue to pray it often between now and Monday afternoon:

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
the courage to change the things I can;
and the wisdom to know the difference.